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I'm a bad pagan. I had redone my altar for summer recently, so I did no more than dust it off for solstice. I didn't add, rearrange, or change anything. It pleases me, for now, as it is.
A few weeks ago I had planned to do a separation ritual in regard to my DIL, but I never got to it, and then circumstances indicated it may have been delayed for reason. Now, it feels like a very good idea again, but somehow I can't be assed to write anything for it, or to even think about it in any sort of focused way.
There are other big changes going on in my life as well, and I wasn't ready to confront, admit, lament or celebrate them.
In fact, all I did for solstice was to be mindful of the occasion while I worked among the plants on the deck, and to spend some time communing with the full moon. It was enough--it took all the attention and energy I could spare. It didn't infuse me with new hope, inspiration and energy. But I think right now maintenance is all I can ask for.
When I have a clear view of what I want to celebrate, I will have my ritual.
A few weeks ago I had planned to do a separation ritual in regard to my DIL, but I never got to it, and then circumstances indicated it may have been delayed for reason. Now, it feels like a very good idea again, but somehow I can't be assed to write anything for it, or to even think about it in any sort of focused way.
There are other big changes going on in my life as well, and I wasn't ready to confront, admit, lament or celebrate them.
In fact, all I did for solstice was to be mindful of the occasion while I worked among the plants on the deck, and to spend some time communing with the full moon. It was enough--it took all the attention and energy I could spare. It didn't infuse me with new hope, inspiration and energy. But I think right now maintenance is all I can ask for.
When I have a clear view of what I want to celebrate, I will have my ritual.