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[arliss]

We Are Amazed!




I have no thoughts, yet, on the ending. There's been too much going on here that's demanding of my thought and my energy. And I have yet to watch the finale all the way through. Maybe I'll get to do that today.

So, she's gone. The court date is Tuesday, and he needs me to be "in residence" by Monday. I got a call from her late Tuesday afternoon. Did we know? How long? Did we give him the money to pay for the lawyer? It's too frelling hard. I still love her. I still have her photos out, here. She's the kids' mother, no matter how angry I am with her, no matter that I feel the person I've loved the last six years isn't who she really is, I can't just stop loving that person. I want to hug her, I want to make her laugh, I want to hear her voice and listen to her snide and snarky opinions. I want to notice her watching him as he moves, and see the affection and the lust for him in her face. I didn't imagine that, did I? It was there? At least some of the time? Where did that go? I want them to work it out, but he's spent the last year coming to terms with it, and I don't know if he'd ever be willing now, or ever be able to trust her again.

It's sad, and it's not fair. And it's not--directly--my business. But I can't help hurting for him and the kids. And yes, for her, too.

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[dxmachina.livejournal.com]

Oh, I'm so sorry. Such a sad thing. Hugs.