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It's a slooooowwww day here in BevWorld. Longassed afternoon with other people reading and me catching up online and doing a few desultory chores. I'm in a weird kinda mood. I think StE and A are coming up tomorrow, which, yay, but, 3 hours in a car for them, the only time in two weeks they have together. And A gets bored here fast, and has a hate-on for me for some reason. I think it's Mommy-related, but I don't know for sure. And I'm not pushing it, not trying to ingratiate myself. He'll come around when he's ready, but meanwhile it hurts a little, and also makes me miss M more, because I won him over, and he was tough. I don't know if I have the stuff to do the same thing with A, and really? Why should I? Well, because I really think we should be friends, at least. But he's all prickly with the womenfolk, and I do think it's not-alienate-Mommy, somehow, in his wee little going-on-five brain.
What I'd like to do today is play all my Miyazaki, at least the ones that have wonderful sky and cloud scenes: Totoro, Kiki, Spirited Away, Howl, copy them into one long sky and clouds dvd and set it to some nice image-evoking, low-emotion-demandy instrumental music. I've been looking for a way to the other side of the looking glass for the last little while. A door in the hedge to slip through, out of real life and the need to interact, cope, deal. Just a place to hide and recharge, with no demands and no expectations, for just a little while.
::looks at paragraph, above. Hmmmm.::
It's a slooooowwww day here in BevWorld. Longassed afternoon with other people reading and me catching up online and doing a few desultory chores. I'm in a weird kinda mood. I think StE and A are coming up tomorrow, which, yay, but, 3 hours in a car for them, the only time in two weeks they have together. And A gets bored here fast, and has a hate-on for me for some reason. I think it's Mommy-related, but I don't know for sure. And I'm not pushing it, not trying to ingratiate myself. He'll come around when he's ready, but meanwhile it hurts a little, and also makes me miss M more, because I won him over, and he was tough. I don't know if I have the stuff to do the same thing with A, and really? Why should I? Well, because I really think we should be friends, at least. But he's all prickly with the womenfolk, and I do think it's not-alienate-Mommy, somehow, in his wee little going-on-five brain.
What I'd like to do today is play all my Miyazaki, at least the ones that have wonderful sky and cloud scenes: Totoro, Kiki, Spirited Away, Howl, copy them into one long sky and clouds dvd and set it to some nice image-evoking, low-emotion-demandy instrumental music. I've been looking for a way to the other side of the looking glass for the last little while. A door in the hedge to slip through, out of real life and the need to interact, cope, deal. Just a place to hide and recharge, with no demands and no expectations, for just a little while.
::looks at paragraph, above. Hmmmm.::