Since I was very, very young, probably about eight, I've always looked at death as a refuge. It's never frightened me. Though dying painfully is an abiding fear, the state of being dead, of oblivion, or heaven, or oneness with the Cosmic All, whatever it turns out to be--or doesn't--has often beckoned as a reward, a relief, a thing to be achieved. Also, I'm curious.
I'm not suicidal, though I have been at times. The line from the Sweet Charity number, "There's gotta be something better than this!" sounds very true to me. I'm not in any hurry to leave. I'm just not dedicated to staying here beyond my allotted time.
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Date: 2005-05-13 08:52 pm (UTC)I'm not suicidal, though I have been at times. The line from the Sweet Charity number, "There's gotta be something better than this!" sounds very true to me. I'm not in any hurry to leave. I'm just not dedicated to staying here beyond my allotted time.