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Huh. The meme I just posted booted my rear and made me connect some dots.
I have much trouble falling asleep...for the same reason I'm usually late for meetings or appointments.
The lateness isn't a rudeness, a disregard for others' time. It isn't that I dislike or hesitate at going someplace new.
I'm reluctant to leave the present, the known. Moving forward requires giving up the known for the unknown. Slipping into sleep leaves things undone, means surrendering control to the unconscious, leaving this place means surrendering the knowledge that the iron is off, the doors are locked, etc. Even if I know where I'm going, have been there before, and it's familiar and I'm looking forward to being there, it's still stepping into the unknown. That part doesn't bother me as much as letting go of the known.
Mind? Very quirky.
I have much trouble falling asleep...for the same reason I'm usually late for meetings or appointments.
The lateness isn't a rudeness, a disregard for others' time. It isn't that I dislike or hesitate at going someplace new.
I'm reluctant to leave the present, the known. Moving forward requires giving up the known for the unknown. Slipping into sleep leaves things undone, means surrendering control to the unconscious, leaving this place means surrendering the knowledge that the iron is off, the doors are locked, etc. Even if I know where I'm going, have been there before, and it's familiar and I'm looking forward to being there, it's still stepping into the unknown. That part doesn't bother me as much as letting go of the known.
Mind? Very quirky.